I wanna hold you

February 9, 2010

I hear these words everyday, all day. With the arrival of a new baby sister, Lily has decided she too wants to be held like a baby, nursed, and carried again. At first, this really annoyed me. I had become aclimated to her independence, and already had my hands full.
One day, the Lord spoke to my heart and said “I have never told you no when you wanted me to hold you, to nurse you, or to carry you. Rather, I delight in our sweet moments together, no matter what the motive.”
He reminded me that “Lily will not ask this of you for long, and before you know it she will be too big to hold all together.”
I have learned to carry Dakota (I love my sling) and pick up Lily with the other hand. I give her the affection she is longing for, and then she hops down on her own to play. If I am nursing, I make room for her to crawl up in my lap with her water or smoothie. I take the time during Dakota’s morning nap to play and be with Lily — one on one. I have no idea how this will look as we have more children, but I guess I will learn as I go. The most important thing I can offer them now is to know they are loved by us, and by God. If I want them to learn to love one another and others well, I must lead by example.
Now when I am holding D, Lily says “I wanna hold you both of your girls.”
If the Lord can hold all his children all at once, I can hold my two.

Bobby took this way to early 🙂


My cup runneth over

February 6, 2010

I am drunk in His love.

Smitten in His presence.

Taken by His kindness.

Renewed by His strength.

In awe of His power.

Growing in His truth.

Encouraged by His promises.

Empowered by His revelation.

Captivated by His glory.

Tasting His goodness.

Enjoying His freedom.

Enthralled by His beauty.

In wonder of His creativity.

Blessed in His abundance.

Daniel Fast

February 3, 2010

My husband and I have just ended an incredible journey that many of you have been on as well. As a first fruit offering, we joined millions of others in a 21 day fast that is similar to the one found in the book of Daniel. (No meat, bread, sweets.)
The desire of my heart in this was just for more of my Lord. I was asking for His presence to be released in my life in greater and more tangible ways.
I knew the physical benefits of fasting would energize, cleanse, and heal my body, but I had no idea of the spiritual renewal I was in store for. Each day, I would pray and ask God to shed the spiritual waste. And He did. Day after day, as the cleansing and healing increased, I could feel myself getting “lighter”. I am not just talking about the 10 pounds that disappeared from my body, but the “junk” that clouded my mind. He showed me that this “junk” was keeping me from entering into the fullness of His Glory. As I died to my flesh and removed the daily barriers of distraction, I entered into a Holy Place where His presence is all consuming. This Holy Place does not just appear because of the act of fasting, but rather the state of humility that pleases God. The bible says, “That you will find Him, when you seek Him with all your heart” and that “He roams the Earth looking for those who’s hearts are pure before Him, that He may show himself mighty on their behalf”.
The motive of the fast was not, “What could God do for me ( although there were incredible breakthroughs)” Rather, the earnest desire for transfiguration.
In my comfortable life, I have learned there is much to lay aside in order to fully be emptied out, thus making room so that I may truly be filled up. At times, this means saying no. Whether it’s a committed fast or just a prompting, I sincerely believe we keep our lives so full and cluttered, there is no room or time for true intimacy with our Maker. Although there is so much freedom in Him and in fasting, I am becoming more sensitive to His leading – even in the smallest details of my day-to-day.
For my family, food is a huge part of our life. We love to eat healthy, and we eat very well. I take much time and effort to prepare healthy, homemade meals and snacks each day. Can this be a distraction? Yes. Can it become an idol? Of course it can.
To lay down a good thing for the sake of a greater thing takes discipline – from the Lord. Each time my mind wanders to what I do not have, I am reminded of what I do have, and how much greater He is.
My heart in sharing this is that our God is so faithful and good. He does not let the righteous go hungry, rather He gives us food, spiritual food, that many know nothing about.
Have you tasted it?
For most of us in America our pallets are so padded down that we do not know the taste of hunger. Fasting was not meant for just a once per year, but for the lifestyle of a believer.

Don’t think you can do it?

Think about His sacrifice for you.

Change your mind?

I challenge you to seek His presence this year like never before. Lay it all down, so that He may rise you up.