First Fruit

July 9, 2010

Moving to a new climate where wild life abounds made me a wee bit weary about starting a garden. I opted for some experimental container gardening. I started with an assortment of random pots and decided to try growing a variety of food from cauliflower to zucchini (which neither seem to be happy in their pots). I am finally seeing some tomatoes arrive and my herbs smell great and are used daily in my kitchen…but the Swiss chard, oh my! It sprang up and up and up. Gardening is beautiful and delicious, and the best part is the satisfaction I feel from the planting effort and the waiting – it arrived!

So what does this have to do with living and loving? Well, around the same time my chard harvest began, so did the harvest in my home.

Since Lily was a baby, Bobby and I have been reading the Word to her, praying over her, and doing our best to model and teach her scripture and of God’s heart toward her.

After a season of her ‘testing her boundaries,’ I was worn out and thought I was losing the battle. Then one day as she tried to climb the playground wall, “all by myself”, I heard her say under her breath “I can do all things through Christ” and she scaled that wall.
“Daddy don’t worry there is no fear in love, God is always with us. I can trust him! Then when her ‘boo boo’ was just too much to bear, she said, “Mommy pray for me and God will heal me.” Another time she said, “Mommy do you need me to pray for you?” “Let’s worship Him for he is so good.” “There is a big spider but I do not have to be afraid.” “Dakota treat others the way you want to be treated.” “Let’s be gentle at all times.” “I am free” ….and the list goes on. My heart soars with joy because she is three and the truth is penetrating her mind and thoughts! Her heart is beaming with the freedom and love that I have just discovered in my 20’s. How incredible, her life will be built on the truth and the love from her Creator.

We toss out seeds not knowing how they will be received. Some may fall on fertile soil, others may be choked up. Remember that the Sheppard goes back for one lost sheep, and so the Gardener, day after day, until the harvest time has come.


To be beautiful

May 19, 2010

What is beauty? For years I had it all backwards. I spent much of my time both consciously and subconsciously striving to be what I thought was beautiful. Now I am learning to live in the beauty that is already within me. What is it I want to offer my husband, my daughters, my friends, and this world? What is the message I want to portray, the presence I want to impart, the legacy I want to leave?

As a mother of two young girls my prayer for them is to grow into beautiful young women. Not beauty as the world defines, but really beautiful women that are free to offer their feminity from a heart that is at rest.
Have you ever been around this kind of women? A woman that draws you to rest in God. She is a rare treasure, a diamond in the rough. Circumstances do not define this woman. It is an internal beauty that comes from her intimacy with God. This is the legacy I will chose to leave.

Our Colorado Princess 🙂

The Dream

May 5, 2010

I am sitting here in my new place soaking in the extradionary view and reflecting on what the Lord has just done. He said if you have the faith of a mustard seed, it can move mountains – so I believed, and He did.
I knew from the time I was young, I would never be satisfied with a mediocre life. I knew God had a great plan for me, but I wasn’t quite sure I deserved it or would be able to achieve anything substantial on my own. I did the church thing, I served, I held bible studies, I prayed with my husband. I did all that good stuff, but I always knew deep down there was more.. and I wanted more.

So I asked God for it.

He then led me on an unexpected journey of deep inner healing. That was no fun and certainly not the dream I was asking for. Yet, through the process, I began to understand that the healing was the beginning of something greater that He wanted to give me. Through humble moments of churning on the potter’s wheel, I was able to see how desperate I was for Jesus. All of Him, more of Him.

So I asked.

Hello, Holy Spirit. My world exploded, and I began to see that “My kingdom come, My will be done,” took on a whole new meaning. Welcome, heart of God.
Life and love – not sin management.
Oh, Freedom. Delight, enjoyment, intimacy with the Father.
I am not a wretched sinner, but rather a daughter of God.
A royal priesthood.

Know who you are, take your rightful place.

Welcome life – and life abundantly.

Hello, Freedom.

Unspeakable joy.

Unshakable peace.

Thank you.

He said I did because you asked.

So my charge to you in writing this is that…

There is more.

Life with Jesus is not about being a “good Christian”.

It is not about obedience, service, or work.

Let me say that again. It is not about work.

Life with Jesus is the most incredible, passionately wild romance and adventure that you could ever dream about in the natural.

It is a supernatural life, if you will receive it.

It is glorious.

It is every passion of your heart, and more is coming true before your eyes in every moment.

It is so real.

It is powerful.

It is not easy.

It is not the popular way.

You will lose some.

You will offend many.

You will be humbled.

You will be exalted.

You will be shaken…
But, never forsaken.

Some want it, but are too scared to pay the price.

Yet there are a few that contain this fire inside and are burning with the heart of God to change the world. They will never be silenced. They live outside of themselves, and want more than average Christianity at its best.

Who will live the dream?

I have come that you may have life, and have it more abundantly. John 10:10

The Paintbrush

March 16, 2010

I have been asking the Lord to show and reveal more of Himself to me. I want to really know His creative heart. I want to enjoy what He enjoys, and to experience what brings Him joy.
I had no idea He would use a paintbrush to teach me.

I am not naturally a gifted artist, but I have always had a fascination and desire to paint. He reminded me of this while sitting in a room of artists painting in the spirit. I looked around wondering why am I here?
“You asked” the Lord replied.

He was right! Not only had I told Him many years ago that I wanted to paint, but I have been praying and asking Him to grow me in the gifts of the prophetic. I am blessed to be part of a church that operates in all the gifts of the Spirit, and I have experienced the encouragment that prophetic words bring. My desire in operation of this gift is to grow and exhort others the same.

Who knew it would be through a paintbrush?
Yes, as I sat frozen before the canvas – shaking in fear – I asked Him “What do I do, what will I paint, and what will it mean?” Especially for someone I have never met. I do not even know the person’s name. “What if I am prophetically wrong?”

I waited, and then I prayed.
“I trust you Lord. You do this, not me.”

Like words that have been spoken from heaven, through the lips of a stranger, came a word picture, a piece of art that ministered to the spirit of a woman I did not know. Again and again, He speaks – He paints – He blesses – He heals – He creates! Our God is the same yesterday, today, and forever.

What an honor it has been for me to pray and paint for others. It is giving words of life from our Father. The joy of going deeper with Him has not only grown my faith, but I have truly come to know His heart toward His children. He loves us all widely, and longs for us to experience real freedom in Him.

The journey in knowing my Father has only just begun. I will never stop seeking after ALL of Him in everway. It is more fun each and every day.

I have come to realize that painting is just a picture of our walk with Christ. We are the canvas. He is the master artist. What we do with His artwork is up to us.

Our new view

March 4, 2010

I was to busy soaking it in to think about taking pictures but here are a just a few….

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No keeping up with the Jones, no interstates,
no winter coats ( I promise its warmer than Atlanta ),
no chain restaurants, no traffic, no smog & no one’s in a hurry.

We literally can ride our bikes to the office, grow our own veggies,hike national forest trails from our backyard, be at the top of the ski lift in 20 minutes,
& walk to natural hot springs.

When God places something in your heart GO WITH IT! It is far greater than anything you could ever ask for or imagine.

My cup runneth over

February 6, 2010

I am drunk in His love.

Smitten in His presence.

Taken by His kindness.

Renewed by His strength.

In awe of His power.

Growing in His truth.

Encouraged by His promises.

Empowered by His revelation.

Captivated by His glory.

Tasting His goodness.

Enjoying His freedom.

Enthralled by His beauty.

In wonder of His creativity.

Blessed in His abundance.

The Ocean

January 15, 2010

Some have never seen the ocean blue.
Some merely look at the horizon as they pass by.
Others stare and appreciate the beauty of the shore.
Some stay on the sand, others chose to swim.
Many wade in the shallow waters.
Brave souls venture out to the sand bar.
Yet there are a only a few not satisfied until the have seen the depths.
They pay the price and learn to dive.

It is there in the deep they encounter LIFE.

Train them while they are young..

Colorado Preparation

January 12, 2010

As the rain and the snow come down from heaven, and do not return to it without watering the earth and making it bud and flourish, so that it yields seed for the sower and bread for the eater, so is my word that goes out from my mouth. It will not return to me empty, but will accomplish what I desire and achieve the purpose for which I sent it. Isaiah 55:10-11

I have learned…

December 31, 2009

I have learned to honor His voice above all others.

I have learned that what seems to be a good thing is not always the “best” thing.

That although we are called to serve, at times we are also called to say no.

I have learned to nurture my marriage above all other relationships.

I have learned to guard my time, and that time is more precious than any “thing”.

I have learned that one word can change a day, and that one prayer can change a life.

I have learned that a woman at rest is far more beautiful than a woman who is striving.

I have learned that nothing is more important than playing with my children, and nothing more fullfilling that seeing the fruit of my labor with them.

I have learned that unconditional love does not come naturally.

I have learned that money has nothing to do with the joy in my life.

I have learned that home truely is where the heart is.

That good friends grow closer during tough times.

I have learned that I don’t have to try and reach God; He is always right here.

I have learned that freedom is not universally understood.

I have learned not to judge others, for each person is lead differently.

I have learned that true worship pleases Him more than obedience, and intimacy more than knowlegde.

I have learned to be still, and to know.

I have learned that He is always good, and always faithful.

You crown the year with a bountiful harvest; even the hard pathways overflow with abundance. Psalm 65:11

Merry Christmas

December 23, 2009

From South Florida